Meagan's Mentality

New Nii-San

2006-07-14T22:53:05Z

Interesting developments everywhere. Dave is getting placed in foster care, and just finished a rank suicide attempt >.> I got the BITCH FROM HELL treatment from the lovely Merlin, and Blaze...well...was Blaze about the whole thing >.<

According to Nakita, the Pack is doing well, which is some good news at least. I dont think I could bear losing them in all of this. And with the Pack at his side, I know Dave can get better. There has been no contact for awhile (other than Nakita, the boys and Valik) so I was starting to stress >.>

Anyways, a few swift notes:

1) Merlin, settle the fuck down or I will kick YOUR ass, capiche?
2) John, I know the answer to that 'question' (already told Rachel, lmfao)
3) Blaze, phone me or mail me you BAKA! I havent heard from you since your LJ comment >.<
4) Merlin, I have a new Nii-san, and you are NOT allowed to kill him '^.^

Thats it for now, bai! ;)

"Theresa"

2006-07-09T22:32:33Z

I ran away from the Ranch, and went to Tramps. I used their phone, but no-one could take me in. So the girl I had met ... what, four hours ago? Says 'I'll take you home with me.' So I went home with her. We talked alot on the bus, I explained my situation while at Tramps, and so now I was just giving her a minor low-down on my fucked up life. She was amazed that I spoke so freely of it all. She said I should be more upset, and when I said I couldnt care less anymore, she seemed worried. She said 'It may catch up to you. When you're settled and everythings going goood, and it will hurt you.' I shrugged it off with a laugh.

Her name is Theresa, and this is what I know of her:

She loves, LOVES anime, and we instantly bonded as a result. She's a physical creature, likes to hug and glomp (though gives a warning before a glomp) She is well known at Tramps, my favorite hang-out. She has a thing for 'strays' and wants to adopt when she gets older. She knows a lot about psychology and is very into it. She knows alot about my medications as well. She seems upset by my dosage (welcome to my world dear) She is 18 and has a job where she works nightshifts. She has a cute dog and lives with her parents, though is moving out as soon as she finds someone to be her roomate.

We went to her place and slept. We woke up at 7:30 in the morning and went for breakfast with a friend of hers, Jen. She came with me to confront the Ranch on their bullshit.

I ran away because the staff will not give me the money I earned at my job, nor the money I got from my family for my 17th birthday. The shit happening with my family is killing me, but I have no-one to talk to. When I try to let out my frustration the staff interupt me and tell me Im 'being to dramatic' Which further angers me. One staff goaded me into throwing my glasses halfway across the kitchen, and I screamed for 5 mins at him before picking up my glasses and packing my bag and leaving. I had to stop and get Rachel's ring from the drawer, throw in some clothes, and I was gone. I had no intention of returning.

Then I remembered THEY had my money, meaning Streetsville.

Joy.

Yeah, Im going fucking crazy, and I swear if Fate hadn't handed me Theresa I would have deliberately gone to Jeremy's and let him kill me. I was that pissed, that despondent. I was willing to hand over my life to the brother of my ex-boyfriend/rapist, Robert (Bobby) Perruox. Yet somehow it was a little difficult with the girl that forcefully reminded me of Rachel. Half of the time I was at Tramps with her, I was wondering if Rachel's soul shared two bodies. It was...frightening, yet comforting all at once. I told her about Rachel, and she didn't care. Later on, I discovered she goes to Gen-Q, and knows Corryne. She didn't remind me of Rachel until she started poking me. >.>

I was reading the spines of the manga, trying to figure out which one to buy, when she started poking me in random places. I blinked, and she said in that cheery voice (that I suddenly realised sounded like Rachel's) "Exploring personal space!" *poke poke poke*

Me: o.o;;;
Theresa: Im going to glomp you now
Me: *thinks she's joking*
Me: *is glomped*
Me: !!!!

And thats how we met. Then I went hhome and had the fight with my staff and came crawling back to Tramps, and later went home with a complete stranger -.-;;;

Now I cant wait till Rachel gets here, because I really want her to meet Kitty (I have now named Theresa Kitty and Tia, and claimed her as mine) I think they will be awesome together! I can always tell instinctively whether or not to trust someone. Theresa was an instant bond, and even though she reminds me of Rachel, I can see the many differences between the two, and I think the three of us will be a pretty awesome trio!

In any case, Im happy I met her, or I'd be dead. Now, Im just going to use Social Services to get my staff fired! :D

Someone fucking shoot me. Please.

2006-07-09T22:14:18Z

I ran away from home.

At Rachel's Request

2006-06-06T18:43:54Z

List ten (10) things you want to say, but never have, to ten (10) different people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any 'comment speculation'. (Unless you really really want to)

1) I dont know how I fell in love with you, or why, but I did, and Im sorry.

2) I would not have made it this far through high school without your unknowing support, indifference to my situation, and accidentally kind words.

3) Your acceptance of my Athieism despite your stature as a Christian man makes me feel better about going to a Catholic School

4) Your enthusiasm as a teacher makes me smile (a rare thing)

5) You are my idol, and you dont even know it

6) I love you. I hate you. I love you. Go die. I hate you. Damn you.

7) You scare the shit outta me, and you get mad when I say you scare the shit out of me, which only scares the shit out of me more, but for some reason I dont understand, I still love you

8) There are times when I want to kill you, times when I want to hold you, times when I want to wipe your tears, times when I want you to go away, and through it all I know that I love you.

9) YOU ARE SO COOL! I dont know why, but I totally heart you!!!!!

10) I am always here for you (Goes to four special boys)

***No, I am NOT fickle, most of that love is for family. Idiots >.>

An Apology to LJ user Sapphrine

2006-05-10T21:28:11Z

I would like to apologise for my actions, or more literally, my words. I didn't mean any of it, I was just pissed, and to be honest it had nothing to do with you or with Rachel. I don't even know you, and attacking you like that was out of line. I assure you it will NOT take place again.

Birthdays and Plotlines

2006-03-29T03:38:05Z

Well, my little sis turned 13 today. O.O Wow...its weird, I don't really remember much of her growing up at all, I was never there. And now that I am she's...I dunno. Big, doesn't really need a big sister. Yet she still does. I dunno. Its all cunfuzzling my brainframe right now ...

AND SPEAKING OF CUNFUZZULATION:

Im almost done Wolf and Lamb, Im at the chapter "The Kill" (aka, Im at the good part) I'll get to work on Fantasies pronto. But here's where my confusion is:

WHEN did Remy and Sirus begin dating, how long, when and how did it end? I know Sirius was still alive when Remmy left him, and Remy got together with Jaladar shortly after Lily's death.

Tiara's Wedding (Complete Tale)

2006-03-21T18:49:13Z

::Note to Dave, Merlin, Blaze: I'll get this up on the Stories site once I find all the other stories. I'll post everything. Also, I can't for the life of me find the Remus+Jaladar tale, the Wolf and the Lamb, so Im just going to re-write it. (Thank god I have a good memory) ANYWAY: Here's the complete wedding thing, AT LAST! :D::

Tiara’s Wedding
Prologue: The Fight

Jaladar entered Cemjan Castle somewhat hesitantly. His daughter was marrying a De’Colan, and he himself was in a particular relationship that would cause just as much controversy. He snuck upstairs, not wanting to take on his daughter quite yet. He went along the corridor till he came to his Grandfather’s door and knocked.

“Enter.”

Jaladar came in and shut the door behind him. His grandfather was sitting in his chair, reading an Anne Rice novel. Jaladar smiled. “Hello Grandpa.” He sat down on the bed, facing his Grandpa. The older gentleman set down his book and took off his reading glasses. “You snuck up here again, didn’t you Jay?” he asked dryly. Jaladar nodded. Grandpa Cortez sighed and leaned back in his chair. “Ok, what’d you do this time imp?” he asked with a slight chuckle.

Jaladar flushed. “Er…well….you see..”

“Out with it.”

Jaladar gulped. “Im dating a man.” He blurted. Grandpa Cortez shrugged. “So? You’ve dated a man before.” Grandpa snorted. “I hope this one doesn’t dump you the moment he tires of you though.”

Jaladar flushed even brighter. “I don’t want to think about Remus right now, thanks.” He muttered.

Grandpa laughed. “Pride still on the low down Jay? Heh heh heh!”

Jaladar growled. “That’s not it Gramps. What Im worried about is how the rest of the family is going to take it. Im not hiding him this time. Im not hiding my lover, ever again. Jaeger will; not be kept secret from my family. I don’t really care what they say along the lines of our being gay. Im worried about how they’ll treat him due to his age.”

A thick brow rose. “His age? Why? How old is he?”

Jaladar coughed something that sounded an awful lot like “Eighteen.”

Grandpa Cortez was silent for so long that Jaladar almost snapped. He was twitching slightly under the hawk-like gaze, and the tension was killing him. Had he miscalculated? Would his Grandfather be against him on this decision?

Just as he went to stand and leave, his grandfather burst out laughing.

”Tiara’s gonna kill you!!!!!” he howled, slapping his legs. “Oh boy, you REALLY like catching her goat don’t you! Hoo boy are you ever an imp!! Ah ha ha ha ha!!”

Jaladar blinked, then grinned. “Yes, she’ll be upset—“

“Master Jaladar, sneaking away from me as usual hmm?” called a soft, matronly voice accompanied by a whack on the head with a wooden spoon. Jaladar looked up from his seat childishly and grinned. “Hi Mariam.”

“Don’t you ‘hi Mariam’ me mister. Sneaking up here without even a hello or good morning. And just what have you gone and done now to anger the little miss?”

Grandpa howled, tears pouring down his face as he gasped…”Jay…his lover’s younger than Tia by three years! Oh ho oh ho!!! Ha ha ha ha!!” Slapping his knees and shaking his head Grandpa continued to chortle. Mariam meanwhile sighed. Tia wasn’t the only one going to be upset about it. She shook her head at Jaladar.

“You need to stop falling in love Master Jaladar. It just gets you into trouble.” She said it kindly and jokingly, but Jaladar sighed.

“I know.” He stood. “I’ll go speak with Tia.” He said, and left the still chortling Gramps and the rather concerned Cook behind.

It wasn’t long until he reached his daughters room. He rose a brow when he heard her giggling, and knocked on the door.

Silidon answered. As soon as the boy saw Jaladar he backed up and rose a hand to his eyes and bowed low. Jaladar said nothing.

“Silidon, who is…oh. Hello Father.” The hello was rather cold; ever since Jaladar commented on the danger of marrying a De’Colan, she had been cold towards him. He sighed. This was going to get ugly.

Stepping in, and ignoring Silidon he said to Tiara, “There is something you ought to know. I intend to bring my lover here for Easter dinner, and I wish for you to be civil towards him.”

Tiara huffed. “Unlike you Dad, Im civil to anyone’s lover, no matter how controversial.”

Jaladar said nothing; he had deserved that. “Well, Jaeger is extremely controversial.”

Tiara rose a brow. “Oh?”

“Yes. Jaeger is….well. He has a son. His son was born three years ago.” Jaladar blinked. He was beating around the bush.

“So…?”

“Tia…Jaeger is eighteen.” Jaladar caught a soft whistle from Silidon. Tiara stared at him.

“What?” she asked, shocked. “Eighteen? That…he’s younger than me. Wha … that … that’s SICK Dad!!!” she cried. “Oh my god! That’s like…pedophilia! That’s like dating Kyle! THAT IS SO WRONG! OH MY GOD!” she put her head in her in her hands and shook it. “This … this KID has some serious issues if he’s dating a man old enough to be his dad. What are you thinking?”

“Tiara..”

“No! No! Don’t…get out! Get the hell out you pervert! GET OUT!”

“Tee. Perhaps you should listen to him.” Silidon stepped forward, standing beside Jaladar. “He is a good man, and sensible. A decision like this would not have been made rashly.”

Tiara stared at her fiancé like he was speaking some alien language. “This man doesn’t want us to get married because of our LAST NAMES and he is dating someone young enough to be his KID and you tell me to LISTEN to him? He’s a fucking nasty ass hypocrite with a kid fetish! EW!” she turned and went further into the room. “EW! OH MY GOD!!!! EWWWWWW.”

Silidon sighed. “Jaladar, I am sure you knew the consequences of staying with this man you love-“

”Man? MAN? He’s a fucking BOY!!”

Silidon ignored the violent interruption and continued. “You knew how hard it would be yet you did it anyway. You love him, don’t you?” Silidon looked Jaladar in the eyes, and Jaladar nodded.

Silidon smiled. “Now you know what me and Tia are going through.”

Jaladar’s eyes widened, then, he rose his hand to his eyes, and bowed to Silidon. “You are wise.”

“Gonna try and fuck my fiancé now to Dad??”

“Go, I’ll calm her down.”

Jaladar nodded, leaving.

Tiara’s Wedding
Chapter One: Planning the Wedding

It had been three days since the fight, and everyone in the Castle knew about it (thanks to Tiara running and telling all the servants and her brother.) Cemjan was now divided into two halves: The For Jaeger and the Against Jaeger. And throughout all this, there was a wedding to be planned.

“He’ll be stingy as hell for all she said to him. He’ll be a right ass. And I’ll bet he’ll speak against the union too.”

“He’ll buy her an ugly dress..”

“I hear he got rid of the bridesmaids..”

“He’ll get a small church, so small no one will fit.”

“He won’t even get a church! He’ll hire a pastor!”

And such were the rumors Jaladar overheard, much to his own amusement. It was amazing how your own family could know you the least.

Tiara was looking through the wedding dresses while Jaladar was on the phone with a prestige catering company. Tiara went to try something on and came into his view just as the call ended.

“Hun, you look beautiful in that, but you are the one getting married; you should wear white.”

“Oh stuff it. I like this dress.”

“Well dear, why don’t we get several of them and use them as the bridesmaids dresses?”

She eyed him for a moment, then nodded.

Many dresses later, she came out again, and Jaladar’s brows rose. “Amazing. Do you like it.”

“Yeah, I love it, but I can’t afford this and the bridesmaid dresses. This dress alone is $40,000 and the bridesmaid dresses are $35,000.”

Jaladar smiled. “Then it’s a good thing Im the one paying for them.”

She stared, and watched the transaction. The dresses were put in the car, and she got in on the passenger seat while Jaladar got in on the drivers seat.

“So you aren’t going to be stingy.” She said coldly. Jaladar looked over to her, and handed her the keys.

“I have to go check on the Hall Im renting out, you go and pick out the colors and bouquet. Don’t worry about money.” He smiled and chucked her under the chin. “You can hate me as much as you want honey, but you’re still my baby. And I will make sure you have the perfect wedding.”

Not waiting for a lashing reply, he got out of the car and walked across the street, heading for the Hall.

Tiara sat in the car a long time, thinking, then she got out and went to the drivers side, and drove to the florists.

Mariam meanwhile was patching up the cake. She had been angered at first that Jaladar wanted catering and a bought cake, but then she reckoned Tiara would prefer a wedding like that. So she compensated for picking out the cake. Jaladar had told her the one he had liked, and she had grudgingly admitted it was beautiful. So she decided it would do, but she’d put her own touches here and there…lights maybe…and water. Yes….

Tiara’s Wedding
Chapter Two: The Ceremony

The Hall was beautiful, decked in pale cream, pale purple and dark purple, the bridesmaids cloaked in shimmering deep purple, their hair done nicely. Only four De’Colans were present; Silidon’s parents, sister, and Silidon himself. The rest were Dragon Clan, all happy and joyous. In the back, Jaladar waited to give his daughter away.

Meanwhile Sarina had let Silvest loose, and the black cat was coiling around the legs of all, quite happily. Silidon was freaking, his hair would NOT lay flat. Jaladar said it would be fine but Silidon would hear nothing of it. Tearing out towards the bathroom, the unsuspecting Silvest cleaning her paw, Silidon kicked her as he went sprawling to the floor, arms and legs splayed as he slid across the linoleum floor and right in through the swinging door to the bathroom.

Gramps called out like an umpire: “HOOOOOOOOME FREE!!! Now THAT’S what I call cold feet boys!!”

Sheepishly (his hair flat and slightly wet) Silidon emerged from the bathroom, to find a furious Sarina holding her cat and Gramps in utter hilarity. Jaladar put his arm around the boy and led him to the standing mirror, far from the glaring Sari. Straightening the boy’s tie he said, “Don’t worry about them. They won’t hurt you. Besides, you’ll be seeing a lot of them now that you’re one of the family.”

Silidon smiled. “So you accept me then?”

Jaladar winked. “I always did. Don’t tell Tiara though.” Silidon shook his head and chuckled. “You ARE bad.”

Jaladar stepped away. “Oh, you have no idea.”

Moments later, the groom and groomsmen were summoned out to the podium, Kyle as best man. It wasn’t long after until the brides song began playing on the organ, and Tiara came into his view. He gasped; his daughter looked so beautiful, like an angel. He looked up to see Silidon just as awestruck, and he held out his arm to Tiara, who took it with perfect, courtly grace. They made their stately way to the podium, where Jaladar stepped to the side. The floor belonged to Tiara and Silidon now.

The Dragon Clan priest coughed, and began. "We are gathered here to unite Tiara Vivien Cortez and Silidon Voxel De’Colan in marriage, which is held in honor among all people. Those who enter into this relationship must learn to cherish a mutual esteem and love; to bear with each other's strengths and weaknesses; to comfort each other in sickness, trouble and sorrow: With honesty to provide for each other, and to live together as heirs of the grace of life. Who gives this woman to be married to this man?"

Jaladar stepped forward. “I, Jaladar Cortez, do give my daughter Tiara to Silidon to wed.”

The priest nodded and continued. "If there is anyone present, who knows of any just cause why this couple may not be lawfully joined in marriage, make it now known or forever after keep your peace."
Vance De’Colan stood. “No De’Colan ought to marry a Cortez, it is unseemly.” The priest said nothing, and Vance sat. His wife Joyce stood. “Should Silidon marry this little whelp, I shall renounce him as my son forevermore.” There were soft gasps, and Jaladar glared at the woman so hard, she shut her mouth and sat down again. Silidon’s sister Fiona stood. “Father and Mother are right. Silidon must not do this.” She sat down again.

The priest was unsure as to what to do, so Jaladar rose a brow to Kyle. They had planned for this. The 16-year old stepped forward from the line of prim groomsmen, and Tiara looked murderous. What was Kyle doing?

“Ok people, commercials are over. On with the wedding.”

Laughter resounded and the priest grinned. He looked back at his book and continued. “Silidon, will you have this woman to be your wife, in all love and honor, in all duty
and service, in all faith and tenderness, to live with her and cherish her, in the bond of marriage?”

“I do.”

“Tiara, will you have this man to be your husband, in all love and honor, in all duty
and service, in all faith and tenderness, to live with him and cherish him, in the bond of marriage?”

“I do.”

Tiara and Silidon joined hands, and Silidon began. “I, Silidon De’Colan, take thee, Tiara Cortez to be my wedded spouse, and I do promise before these witnesses to be thy loving and faithful spouse, in good times and bad, in joy and in sorrow, in sickness and in health, as long as we both shall live."

Tiara repeated the same, “I, Tiara Cortez, take thee, Silidon De’Colan to be my wedded spouse, and I do promise before these witnesses to be thy loving and faithful spouse, in good times and bad, in joy and in sorrow, in sickness and in health, as long as we both shall live."

Again Kyle stepped forward, this time officially as the best man, and held the rings above the joined hands of Silidon and Tiara. Silidon went on, “This ring I give you, in token and in pledge, of our constant faith and abiding love.” He took the smaller silver ring and placed it on her finger. Tiara repeated the same and took the remaining ring, placing it on Silidon’s finger. Together and in sync the two ended the ring ceremony,

“By accepting this ring, I give you a token and pledge, of our constant faith and abiding love.”

The priest held his hand to them and pronounced, “By the power vested in me by Dragon Clan and the Gods of our people, I pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss the bride.”

Silidon lifted Tiara chin and kissed her softly. Many claps were heard and Tiara turned and threw the bouquet. To everyone’s shock, it was Sarina’s lap it landed on.

Tiara’s Wedding
Chapter Three: The Reception

The food was set and everyone was chatting. People were waiting for the toasts to begin before eating, yet neither father was standing. Tiara’s face was blank; she hadn’t REALLY expected Jaladar to say anything. Just as she went to start eating (no one was going to toast her wedding, so they may as well eat) Jaladar stood up, and the loud chime of his fork on his glass brought silence to the room. Setting down his fork, he rose the glass higher.

“To Tiara and Silidon.” The congregation repeated it, lifting their glasses and taking a sip before setting them down again.

“For many generations Dragon Clan has been at war with Daemon Clan. Over the last 50 years it has reached its peak. Violence and tragedy is everywhere, and our families become smaller and smaller.” He pointed his glass at the newlyweds.

“There sits two people, brave enough to over come the petty differences of our Clans. Daring to love one another, to hold one another, to care for one another. These two people show us there IS no difference between the Clans. We are all people here, people with hearts and feelings and minds. They chose a path full of darkness and danger, for love. They risked being ostracized from their families, for love. They risked everything to be with one another, and I say, who are we to judge? Who are we to judge their love, to judge something so pure and innocent as true love, something some of us will never see in our lifetime. Who are we to deny them, just because we shall not see the same? We have no right. We have no RIGHT to judge them. I will not hear of another word spoke against their union, for we have no right to judge!”

“HERE HERE!” shouted many of those gathered, some banging fists on the table. Jaladar nodded, and turned to Silidon.

“Silidon, welcome to the Clan!”

“YAR!”

“HERE! HERE!” fists pounded and Gramps, sitting beside Silidon, clapped the boy on the back.

“Tiara dear, congratulations on your wedding, may your honeymoon be wonderful.”

There was silence, and Jaladar rose his glass to finish the toast. “Silidon!” he barked. “You hurt my little girl and I’ll kill you!” and with that he downed his glass and sat, cheers and laughter abounding through the hall. Everyone looked at Vance, who stood, rose his glass and growled,

”I can’t top a speech like that, and I ain’t about to try. Frankly I think you Cortezes are all fools.” He drank his wine, grabbed his wife and daughter, and the three exited the Hall. Silidon looked heartbroken. Gramps clasped his shoulder, and, oddly, said nothing. But it seemed to be enough, and Silidon smiled again.

Tiara’s Wedding
Goodbyes and Apologies

After the meal was the dancing, and Gramps nearly broke Tiara’s back he bent her so hard and fast during the Tango. Several people swear they heard a popping sound.

It wasn’t long after that that Silidon and Tiara entered the car to drive to the airport for their honeymoon flight to Greece. Just as Silidon was pulling away, Tiara said, “Wait.”

He looked at her and stopped the car. She jumped out, lifting the hem of her wedding dress so she could run, and flung herself into Jaladar’s arms, who, bemused, held her silently. When she said nothing, he stepped back. “Go on then, Greece is waiting for you. You’ve said your goodbye.” She stared at him, and tears formed in her eyes as she shook her head. “How can you be so nice…say all that…after how I treated you?” she asked, tears leaking down her cheeks. Her father smiled softly. Taking out his handkerchief he wiped her tears. “Honey, you are my daughter. Nothing you can say or do will make me hate you. I tease you all the time, but I don’t hate you, and I never will.” She sniffed. “That stuff you said…about me and Silidon. Its about you and that…about you and Jaeger too, wasn’t it?” he nodded. “A little bit of it.” She sniffed again, and wrapped her arms around his neck. “I love you Daddy. Im sorry about what I said.” He smiled. “I know dear. I know.” She stepped away. “Go on!” he said, shooing her. “Greece can’t wait to see you!” she laughed, and started down the stairs. Stopping, she looked back.

“Dad?”

“Hmm?”

“Bring him over at Easter, ok? I want to meet him.”

Jaladar’s brows shot up, and then he laughed. “I’d love to dear.”

With that, Tiara and Silidon headed off to Greece, while a very happy Jaladar headed back home with Gramps, Mariam and Sarina, planning a nice long owl to Jaeger.

Ewwwwie.

2006-03-10T14:25:29Z

What a day yesterday. >.< I woke up late and missed my bus, so I was dragging my ass downtown when I stopped. Everything was spinning. I was like 'whoaaa....' and then I puked. Right there on the sidewalk. Nice.

Enter Downtown. Find a garbage can. Im puking my guts out and some random guy walks by and yells 'Druggie' Im like 'Huh??'

Enter the school. Go to teacher. Say Im sick. Go back home. Sleep.

Enter today.

Feel like craps.

>.

My Adventure with the Idiotic Bus Driver

2006-03-01T18:07:45Z

So here we are, Dan and I, out waiting for THE LAST bus from his neighbourhood to my place. We are standing there in the damn cold for like 20 min waiting for the damnable bus. After about 20 minutes, the Bus FINALLY pokes it's head around the corner. I stand up from where we are sitting and wait for the bus. It pulls into the bus lane, slows down, then the Idiotic Driver comes into play. He steps on the gas, swerves back into the driving lane, and speeds off. There was NO ONE inside the bus other than the driver. Take note, this was THE LAST bus I could take.

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry, but when I saw the shocked, indignant look on Dan's face......then the stuttering......and the high pitched voice......"Wha-wha-what the HELL WAS HE DOING???"

I laughed my ass off.

Moral to this Story: Busses are more user friendly then personal cars.... :D Not.

What's to say?

2006-02-28T20:18:16Z

Y'know, I always considered my Dad a compassionate guy. Really nice and whatnot, always calm, soft spoken. Gave mom whatever she asked for, and when she said no to him, he didn't complain.

Yeah, he'd buy that $5,000 ring. She'd tell him he couldn't get the $100 watch. He'd just smile and say "Eh, didn't need it anyway."

Now it turns out he's:

Been having an affair for two years
Is divorcing mom at the point in her life where he is needed the most; financially, emotionally
He now refuses to call me
He talks to my little sister only cuz mom forced him to call once a week
He's behaving immaturely

Wow.

Talk about reality check.

Everyone's a prick at heart .....

Why I hate Racism

2006-02-28T20:03:00Z

I have a friend whom I have loved for years. He has been with me through thick and thin, and even when I try to push him away, afraid of how close he's getting to me, he stays beside me. He hates his name, says it sounds like a dogs name, but I think its cool: Merlin. Merlin Garret Tyrone Takashidi, a Japanese boy with a huge grin and a bigger heart. A kid who has gone through hell and then some, works his butt off to help his mom keep food on the table and the other three children in check. He's sixteen and he's taking the role of an adult in his family. His father left him and his mom when he was 13, and ever since he does what he can to help his mom out.

I had another friend. Kind, soft spoken, sweet. His name is Limone. He's a computer genius; he can hack, encode, decode, crypt, html, anything, he knows it. He helped me rebuild a site of mine. He would hang out with me and Merlin, and we'd have a blast.

Until about a month ago, when Merlin and I began dating. Limone had a hissy fit like you wouldn't beleive. He told me he wouldn't let me date Merlin. I told him its none of his buisness.

He MADE it his business.

He hacked Merlins computer and sent him viruses and threatening pop ups. He hacked my site. He forced me into rewriting the site, and some other people on that site jumped on the bandwagon trying to get it completely wiped out by Invision Free. Limone has moved from the city, saying he can't stand the thought of a perfectly good caucasion woman wasting herself on a filthy Jap.

Well.

First off, the site was deleted and I couldn't give a flying fuck. Secondly, I reported Limone to the police for harrassment, despite Merlin telling me not too. Merlin doesn't want any trouble, he never sticks up for himself. The amount of times I have to tell people to back off of him is retarded. He's good to the point of foolishness. If a person is kicking the crap outta you, fight back. Don't just take it.

*sighs*

I hate racism. People say its dead, but people just don't look very hard. Racism is everywhere, affecting everyone, and its completely and totally stupid.